I've been going through a tough time recently and it's affecting my writing. A month ago, I was writing lots and producing what appeared to be half-decent short stories. Now, I'm struggling. I do simple writing exercises and I hate what I write so much that I can't continue. My mind seems to solidify.
Having to write a dissertation proposal doesn't help. I want to write a set of Gothic short stories with a linking theme of identity. I'm excited about having the opportunity to spend summer doing this, but I don't feel 100% confident. One day it seems like a good idea; the next, I think I'm an idiot to contemplate it and I should think of something else. Then I have to accept the idea's not the problem: I am.
I'm going to feel the same no matter what I pick, so I'm going ahead with my idea. Now I'm trying to put it into words, but they all come in a jumble and I worry that I can't explain myself very well. The only thing keeping me going is I need to email it by the end of this week. No matter how stupid I/my idea sound, I've got to keep going.
I just hope some confidence comes later.