Tuesday, 19 August 2014

Forget Recharging — I Need a Reboot!

I've spent a month doing very little, so why do I still feel tired and lacklustre? I'm supposed to be recharging, but my battery is still almost empty. My motivation is low, as is my mood in general, and I'm frustrated because I ought to be doing more writing.

I wish I could reboot. I'd revert to the settings I had a few months ago, when I was enthusiastic and productive. I keep telling myself that if I want to be successful — in writing and other areas in my life — I have to put in the work and take steps towards my goals. Trouble is, taking action involves more than good intentions...

It's been a tricky week: my puppy was neutered a week and a half ago and on Saturday, his supposedly empty scrotum had swollen to the size of a large apple. We took him to the vet and she was amazed that he was so lively, since his temperature was a few degrees above normal. He has an infection and had to be put on an antibiotic drip for a few hours. They drained the scrotum too and it's getting smaller as he continues a course of antibiotics. He doesn't try to lick it, which is just as well because he chews the cone-shaped collar that is supposed to stop him licking, but he's a Springer Spaniel and stopping him from jumping and running around is impossible. Suffice to say, I'm a little stressed!

But that's no excuse. I've been wasting time on TV and iPad games instead of writing. I have a few projects I should be working on, but I've done nothing except think about them a little. I wish I knew how to give myself a kick up the arse — all I've managed to do is write a minimal to-do list for today, to make sure I did something instead of nothing. I suppose I will keep going and try to do a little more each day. Until someone figures out how to reboot humans, what else can I do?


  1. I'm so sorry about all the problems you're having with your pup. I can sympathise - trying to keep a springer spaniel quiet really is impossible. I haven't decided yet whether to have Dusty neutered. I had a springer once who used to use those cone collars to scrape the wallpaper off the walls. In the end the only way I could stop him chewing his legs (he had Lick Granulomas which after years of steroids cleared up completely when I put him on an holistic diet) was to put a muzzle on him when I wasn't there to stop him.

    Don't be too hard on yourself - I know exactly how you feel with the frustration of seeing time pass and not getting things done. It all goes around and comes around and maybe while you're playing games, your subconscious is at work and will let you know when you're ready to write again :-) x

    1. Thanks, Teresa. I'm really annoyed and frustrated, because part of my reason for choosing a male dog is that my previous springer and my dad's German Shepherd both had bad reactions to the internal stitches when they were spayed. I thought having a boy neutered would be easier and less stressful — it seemed to be for our cat, anyway! I also hoped he would behave better after being neutered, but that's yet to be seen... At least the swelling continues to go down! :-)

    2. I'll be interested to know if it makes any difference to his behaviour. Dusty is 7 months now and starting to get a bit amorous around legs!!
      Sounds like you were just unlucky to have these after-effects. I hope he's feeling better soon x